Friday, 16 November 2007
couldnt sleep last night.
cos of the CHRONIC coughing.

anyways, went to school today.
took cab there.
and walked home.
not bad, an hour's journey.
took a detour over at Jurong Lake Park.
sat by the lake.
just dont feel like going home thats all.

then slowly thoughts filled my mind.

what does life has in store for me?
whats up in the next chapter of my life?
unpreictable.
all that i can do is look back.
i'll remember my days in hua yi alright.

Then again, being in hua yi,
to be frank, i never had a sense of belonging.
i will never say that i fit into hua yi.
but i do learn to cherish ties amongst friends.
i realised the importance of friendship.

i still remember. practically everything?
i stepped into the school with alex.
he's the only person i know and depend on.
then i remember my first harsh word to clarence "no" and how we eventually turned out to be bestfriends forever.
and i remember those laughters i had in class while i was in sec 1
i remembered how me and alina cheated for geography test
and me and cindy cheated for home econs test(=
and yeah, i remembered, how i first met edwin..
and i remembered how i first talked to joyce -she asked me out for ice skating.
i remember how me and ronald had mini catfights in school everyday in sec 3 and 4 and how i helped him out for english and he helped me for my maths(=
and how yan jie and i used to laugh like lunatics one minute and become emo the next.
i remembered when i went up on stage. gosh. thats embarrassing.
i remember how i used to sit in class and gossip with cindy once in a while.
and i remember the look that qian and charmaine gave me when i said that i went to changi airport to meet rain! haha!
the look of reuben's eyes that he give teachers whenever he forgets to bring homework!
i remember almost every moment spent with everyone!
im not sure why, but maybe when you enjoy your time and cherishe the people, you'll naturally remember???

and of course
i'll remember the stairs which i slipped and fall from,
those detention days for being late multiple times,
how me and clarence pushed each other off the chairs.
the pond which steven fell into =x
the secluded staircases which i used to sneak out of class and spend quality time with someone without anyone noticing that i was gone.

i wont forget being in the boy's toilet, many times in fact.
i wont forget my trips to the principal's office. quite thrilling((=

those camps which i went to...
field trips. oh and the trip to yakult factory, which billy and i insisted that we needed straws to drink yakult.
getting drunk with vodavoda during chalet.
and those exciting flying fox experience, which i begged the instructor to let me go on another time but he didnt let me. lol.

and im thankful that i have caring teachers around me who always showed concern and is always supporting me and giving me encouragements. i wont forget that.

setting aside cheeky moments,
i think there's also alot of bitter memores that i had.
while i made friends, i made foes too.
unpleasant things do happen.
alot of bitchiness.
im the sort who'll forgive.
but i wont forget.
but im thankful though, these are what that makes me stronger.
so i guess its like a blessing in disguise?

i wont say that im a good girl, neither am i a bad one.
being late for school and punished to run the field, being yelled at for wearing low socks, questioned for dying my hair, forced to pluck out my multiple earrings,did silly things which caused me to land in trouble in the principal's office(i still dont think i was wrong for most of it), how i plucked my courage and asked for my ezlink card back after it being confiscated by the dm for not tucking in my shirt, reprimanded again and again to not fold my skirt.............
these are the little things which make me look back and grin.
pretty funny actually.
dont know why i did `em...its not intentional!
of cos i wont want the juniors to all be doing these....
but at least i can look back and giggle "been there, done that"

there was of course,
a time in sec3 which i cried and begged my mum to transfer me out to another school because alex left school and clarence was always having petty fights with me in school.
but then agian, i never did regret going to hua yi. guess these are the things that made you stronger and makes u treasure moments more. it makes friendships stronger i suppose.

goodbyes are inevitable.
i remember when i asked joyce whether we'll still be the same after we leave hua yi and she claimed ,"people change, friends change".
setting aside all that, i'll always remember what clarence told me before.
friends are like pieces of puzzle.
im glad that i have a handful of puzzle pieces to complete a portion of my life's chapter.
and i think its alright when people forget me.
at least i can tell myself that once along my life's journey, i've shared happy moments with them, or at least, they've made me happy. and thats what makes me enjoy my days in hyss.
and i'll anticipate to know what the future holds Till we meet again, my love 11:00 am